Dare to be different?

Many things ..many mnay things are going through my mind as I pen down this decision of mine..that is to quit my 4 year long banking career... what if i dunt get another job? What all will I do with ALL the free time which I am not at all used to having? how will i cope with my financial limitations? what the hell will i tell people around me? how will it impact my lifestyle? why cant i just go ahead and continue working? why? when? what? how.... and so many more questions and apprehensions are haunting me day in and out ……… *sigh*
The fact is that I am bored and sick of the political corporate world! On the surface I have a perfect job, hefty salary, no power failures (means I am always sitting in a chilled room and have a reasonably fast internet connection at my disposal) a free telephone line, job security and a bunch of nice people to hang out with. So what else a girl needs?!?! Why am I even thinking of quitting!

The only reason for my is that ……I feel I am getting dull! Don’t you think that’s stupid? Just because I feel my brain has stopped doing challenging work and is mostly processing the random gossips being thrown my way from all around the floor and inevitably me passing it around… I feel I am useless! And on top of all that my boss making me feel even less important by ignoring me for days although I am the most senior in my team. But I also know that he himself is just passing time and so is everyone else in this organization…so y am I feeling guilty? Why do I feel I am wasting myself away?

I think I know y! the fact is that I AM wasting myself …. Not doing anything is making my brain go numb and I fear I’ll so get used to this that I wont be able to come back…hence this decision…… I know what I am doing is not wrong but its daring, definitely daring……for someone like me who has always taken measured steps, have always had things all planned, never really taken risks …….so I am scared …very scared …and yes it is big for me! …there is SO much to do in this world, so many things to learn, I don’t want to do banking all my life I want change!!!

Plus every1 keeps on telling me that what I am doing is WRONG!!! They tell me to do what every1 is doing…just CHILL! And let the money come in!!
*oh God! I cant do this alone…just plz help me *

Geo -- Plz jeenay do

yesterday @ iftar time, sitting around the table, watching tv we were trying to get to a channel that shows iftar countdown, we came to halt at geo news. After the iftar dua and azan some news about this "kalakar" (artist) started .......they were showing this random singer who cudnt make a living out of his singing and now sells ice cream to raise his family. the way Geo put it ...it was like "talent ki pakistan main koi kadar nahin - aik singer apni singing ko chor kai ice cream ka thaila laganay laga" and they show these random people from the streets who are saying "becharay kai uper yeh din a gayee hain" etc etc........
what i got pissed at was the tone of "bechargi" to the entire news! y ?? y is selling ice cream THAT degrading to our nation!? hasnt any one seen people singing for money at tube stations...do u call them beggers?? not really! they are NOT asking for money...they are only displying their talents and people who want to give ...they give! but the point is our nation has forgotten then Mehnat is what is desired and no kaam is degraded in Islam! but Geo seems to think other wise....at times i feel they are only trying to agitate the nation and nothing else....