bye bye 9 to 5

Ladies and gentlemen, i am a fresh pround unemployed person!!!..... those of u who dunt have a clue wht i am talking about....need to resign to feel this bliss of temporary unemployement (i sure hope its temp :/ )

its like sum1 has removed a BIG boulder from over my shoulders.... (i SO wasnt working in any construction cmpany:p *lame joke i know...but TODAY i am alowed to be lame and totally crazy*) cause i DID it!!! i RESIGNED from a perfectly perfect job paying gud money per month....for sleeping in late in the morning, lazying with a book in the afternoons and doing whtever i want and when ever i want!!! bye bye 9 to 5 .....here i come free lance world.....sky is the limit!!

The name is good, the brand is big

But the work I do is that of a pig

The work or the brand;

what is my way?I don’t know if I should stay.

To work, they have set their own way

Nobody will care to hear what I say

My will be NULL, they wont change their way

I don’t know if I should stay.

The project is in a critical stage

But to do good work, this is the age

This dilemma is killing me day by day

I don’t know if I should stay.

The money is good, the place is great

But the development is at a very small rate

Should I go for the work, or wait for pay

I don’t know if I should stay. !

The managers don’t know what they talk

The team doesn’t know where they walk

That’s a bad situation, what say?

I don’t know if I should stay.

I can go to any other place

But what if I get the same disgrace

I can’t keep switching day by day

I don’t know if I should stay.

The -ves are more, the +ves are less

Then why have this unnecessary mess

No more will I walk their way,

It’s all done, I JUST won’t stay.

the burden of this world ......

YEs i am one of THOSE who think this world will fall out of its orbit if i wouldn’t take care of it.... and guess what this huge responsibility is not very comforting ! I am SICK & tired of taking care of everything and everyone in my life ..... who made me incharge han? Its one of the, many demerits of being a woman…and the eldest child in one’s family. Since childhood I have been taking care of my 3 siblings like a mother whether mama was around or not….. it has been my duty to take care of them psychologically, when it came to perception management or studies or carrier counseling …… in addition to being their mentor I had an in built boss in me … who was to overlook the activities going round the house and mostly be the communicator of the “bad news” to the workforce (siblings) which the high authorities (mom & dad) didn’t want to deliver themselves. hence, from the very beginning I have been trying to be THE best at everything, being responsible for everything.......
Nothing changed even after I got married in fact the boss and the elder sister in me took over and before I realized I was “bringing up” my husband. From taking care of his breakfast in the morning, getting his clothes ready for work, putting his things back in places …..All the way to carrier counseling & stress management …. my job and responsibilities don’t end. I am worried about his health, his driving, his work pressure, his studies (making notes for him, keeping a check on his assignment deadlines, keeping his stationary and his collage id card and making sure that he has prepared for his exam), his social life…… etc etc etc so basically I have been promoted from being his wife to his full time care taker and his personal assistant…and everything for him. Its not that I don’t do things for myself, I do. But it’s the constant backend worried that are exhausting me…..and I see no cure to them! I think it’s just being one of the many demerits of being a women ……I just wish I could take it easy and that too soon before I collapse! generally i deal with everything smoothly without MUCH complaining as ghalib puts it

“Ranj sai khugar ho insaan, toh mit jata hai ranj
Mushkilain itni pari mujh per kai assan ho gayee”

but there are some days when i just cant take it and feel like running away......

Style Up!

arghhhhh!!!! ever been so hungry that ur stomach ACTUALLY makes sounds?!!? mine is doing so right now and i NEED foooood!!
no matter how much i try loosing stuborn pounds off me, seems i just cant control my hunger! is it an indication of a weak will power?? i think it is...so i have decided that instead of crying abt lack of time for exercise and all i'll just start working on my mindset! hmph!!

yesterday, i came across this tv show TIM Gun's guide to Fashion, which REALLY impressed me and has give me a new mission al2gether :D thats always good right ;)
anyway so in this show, this Tim guy transforms a random lady's life by adjusting minor things in her life...like her dressing sense, teaches em what to wear to make the best of your EXISTING body shape and type! how to let go of things u CANNOT control and how carrying those burdens wears u out..... its really inspiring i tell u and the transformations are amazing :)

so that has kind of made me more comfortable with mylife as i know i can still do sumthing abt it even if i cant be regular for my workout.... also i need to redo my entire wardrobe! yayyyy THAT i luv doing :D